"I've never experienced anything like that. I'm trembling". He said in a whisper.

A New Experience

I have been a sensual explorer for quite a few years now and never realized that it's not always about what you think is sensual but actually your just "being" sensual that turns everything you do sensual.

Did that makes sense? I hope so, because the other day in my studio I had a request I never had before. He asked.. Can you shave me.. down there? Of course me, well being me, said of course I can. I actually never did this before and after I said yes I got a little nervous. Geeze... what if I cut him by mistake... Yikes!

Before he showed up I began to set everything up I thought I might need. Aside from setting up my usual warm oils for massage and lighting my cazillion candles, turning on my towel warmer and getting my music out I also laid out a towel, bowl of water, shaving cream and a razor. I also got out an anticeptic cream (just in case).. I didn't put that in plain view, I didn't want to scare him.

He walked in as usual, he went right back into my studio and got comfortable. He took a nice hot shower and came out. I have a sort of "thing" I like to do when a man or woman comes out of the shower. I enjoy taking a few minutes to dry them off myself. Very softly with a warm towel. I think this non-sexual gesture in it's own way can be more sexual than sex sometimes. It's a very sensual feeling for me and allows me to embrace my own feminimity.

After this, he jumps up on to my table and we begin his Soft Touch Bodywork Session. I'm going to skip over this part because it's something that I want to talk much more in detail about in another post. Trying to stick to the topic of this day's post. Needless to say after he was completely oiled, massage, carressed and utterly free of any stress he may have had before he jumped on my table I asked him, "are you ready"? He said, "Yes".

I then took a small pair of scizzors and began to trim off the top layer. As he had never shaved or even trimmed the area before there was quite a lot of growth. As I gently pulled apart and separated areas to trim I noticed how gentle this entire act was. How his trust in me as I looked up and saw his eyes closed, his hands resting at his sides made me feel. I felt more gentle, more nurturing than I thought I would.

I did this until there was nothing left but a short layer of hair. I then took a generous handful of warm shaving cream and spread it on him. Using much more than I needed and rubbing it around probably more than I had to, this just felt good. I dipped the razor in some warm water and took my first swipe.

So gently I grazed it along his pubic area right below his belly button. As I watched the line of shaving cream or actually the lack of it make a stripe across his lower belly I knew right then and there this was probably the most sensual thing I've ever done.

As I used both hands now to achieve such a glorious experience, I was enthrawled with his beautiful trust in me as his body was indeed mine to care for in such an intimate exchange. As I moved his penis to each side to get the inner most part of his legs he never moved or flinched. He lay there as I manipulated and prodded his body. Never once looking up or moving, nevertheless, our connection was indeed stronger than what I could have imagined.

As I watched his body become smooth and clean-shaven I felt his man-hood throbbing with delight. Imagine the hot cream, the manipulating, the trust, the new feeling of air and water touching your bare skin which had never felt so alive as each nerve ending was uncovered from the natural brush that was there forever.

This was indeed the most sensual act of giving I had encountered in a very long time. The entire experience for him was incredibly erotic as his entire body shook uncontrollably as his orgasm rose out from within and shuttered out slowly and completely without the normal stroking that he was so used to. That an orgasm can overwhelm you so incredibly as to feel it emulate from the tip of your toes to the top of your head.

I hope I have many more encounters such as this. I will never take for granted what I think is sensual. As this has totally taught me that everything is indeed sensual. Allow your sensual self to dictate the things you do and your entire world becomes erotically beautiful.

Uncomplicated Giving

Giving is a way of life... Uncomplicated giving is just that. Uncomplicated. When you stand at the doorway a few extra seconds while you wait for someone to get there or when you pass by a stranger and actually look in their eyes and smile is a beautiful way to give. No strings and no agenda this is something that can profoundly change the way in which that person interacts with the people involved in his world that day. Not to mention that it makes ME feel good.
For me, this act of sensuality is an integral part of who I am and how I am. This doesn't mean that I want to have sex with strangers that I smile at or hold a door open for. What it does mean is that there is never a time in my life I reserve my sensual self for. There are so many levels that my own sensuality can be present and alive every single second of my waking hours.
I remember on time I was walking into a 7'11 and I saw a man get out of his car and head up to the door. Now, of course I know he's coming to the door though he was probably a good 20 seconds away from it. I know that doesn't sound like long but in the world of holding a door open I believe most people have a 2 second rule. If you are not directly behind the person going in you just let go of the door. So, anyway, I waited for him with a smile.... In the grand scheme of things, what is 20 seconds out of my life........ well, I'll tell you what that 20 seconds is for me.... and now for a complete stranger..........
It was profound. This person's gate was heavy, strong, determined as he bounded toward the door looking down the entire time. I'm sure his mind was on something that completely engrossed his every thought and I don't think those thoughts were positive. You can always tell when someone is not a "happy camper".
I found all of this out within the 20 seconds I stood there waiting for him. When he finally did look up and saw me there he was a few feet away from the door in which I was holding and he gallantly stepped up to a fast walk as to not make me stand there longer. That was a nice gesture. I immediately said, "don't run, it's too early for that. Take your time, no rush". He stopped and he look at me and said..."Young lady, you just made my day, Thank you". that said with a smile that was expressed not only by his lips, but by his eyes. I watched the angst that followed him out of his truck completely disappear. What I saw was a pair of big brown smiling eyes.
Why did I do this.. Not for him, I don't know him... I do this for me... because giving or transferring positive energy out to the universe via one person at at time makes me feel happier than I made him feel. This is a circle of giving that is uncomplicated and one in which is so easy to give. I have found that I no longer even have to think about these sorts of things.. they now come naturally and lovingly.
I believe the guarded walls we all create to survive have been moved back in my mind. This allows me to be so much more empathetic to the human condition. I went from wondering why someone was "looking at me" to enjoying that instant and spontaneous connection with a smile. It's a huge leap in NY to do that.. any of you that live here understand what I'm saying and what I mean.
Smile at strangers, hold a door a few extra seconds. You will be happily surprised how much this changes your outlook and your state-of-mind as well as the ones you are around.

Essential Touch

Essential Touch

Remember when you were little, perhaps, your mother or father would gently stroke your hair before you fell asleep? When you were hugged and you felt the loving arms around you that gave you a profound sense of safety? These feelings are just as important to your emotional and physical well-being as it is to see your doctor on a regular basis. When this tender, loving care is absent from your child life it will have an effect on your life as a growing adult, on your relationships and your ability to give and receive affection. You might even question your own self worth. As important as it is to getting a deep tissue massage, as important as it is to work and to care for those in your life who depend upon you, it is just as important to feed your soul and your desire to feel the soft touch of another person.
Soft Touch Bodywork is the same as having a completely grand and perfectly balanced meal. Everything before you is perfect for your health and to delightful to your taste. Yes, we can surely survive on bread and water for a substantial amount of time, but you would not be 100 percent healthy. Eventually this would wear down the rest of your physical and mental abilities. You would simply be surviving.. .. We want to thrive... not merely survive.
Anyone can go for a deep tissue massage. Anyone at anytime anyone can feel the touch of another person via sexual intercourse, a shake of a hand, a passing pat on the shoulder, a hug from a child. All of these things are essential to one's balanced self. I don't want to diminish or minimize the need for any and all of these beautiful touches....... But absolutely none of these quenches our deep desire to be gently caressed and adored without hesitation. To be vulnerable, to let go of our insecurities about our physical looks for an hour out of our lives and allow ourselves the gift of being without fear or judgement for even a short amount of time is a gift beyond gifts.

Mind & Body Infusion

Where one begins and the other ends becomes nothing more than a fuzzy blur. Who's Knocking at your door.
Ideas, agendas, inferences and a menu of sorts is already set in your head when you walk through the door. Everyone has an agenda. Everyone thinks they know exactly what they need and want and for general purpose that is true. But when you walk through a Tantrika's door and enter her/his world the menus and agendas are cast off into the wind from a mere whisper of wind from a curtain.
The key to an abosolutely, insanely great Tantra or Massage session is the ability to let go of everything thought, every feeling, every sound, every sight except those placed upon you by your guide. To do this for your client takes great care, patience and passion for the art that is... Holistic Healing.
Every Practitioner, or 'Artist', has their own way and belief system that governs the way in which they practice their modality. I say, "belief system", because this sort of healing is not drawn from a menu. It is not something you can learn from a book or be taught. This is something that comes from within and is transferred out to the universe at any given time.. and most assuredly is gently caressed into the very core of the one who is laid out before you.
The body speaks the truth. The brain has excuses, definitions, walls and in general is cluttered up with daily duties of the day, the memories, that while one might believe they've forgotten, stand tall at the doorway of your Id diligently building up those walls one brick at a time, one day at time, one memory at a time until its shadow alone would stop any real feelings from daring to even think they had a chance at seeing the doorway let alone slipping through it.
Listen intently to what is not being said. Listen to a sigh, a slight movement, a twitter of a toe, a half breath, hands that slowly relax from fetal position allowing the fingers to actually have some space between them and to slowly watch them reach out, as they open for you, reach out to the universe as if to say.. fill me, empty me, take care of me, I'm yours. This is why people come to you. Though I would venture that if you asked them directly why they sought you out.. they would say... I heard "Tantra" was erotic **translation: I want a good orgasm**. Hey, this is good enough of a reason for me. Why, you might ask after all the deep glop you just read.. Why.... because... it gets them in the door. What they think they want is not always what they truly need.
You walk through my curtain...... I immediately take control

Botanical Gardens - Holiday Train Show

Botanical Gardens is such a beautiful place any day of the year, but during the Holiday Season they add extra beauty to it by having a Holiday Train show. The train show is not your traditional Christmas scenes with snow capped frozen lakes with figures ice skating and drinking hot chocolate around a Christmas tree. Rather, it is a beautiful display of some of the oldest and newest landmarks in New York City. The model homes and buildings are some of the most beautiful recreations I've ever seen. Stunning is a good word for it.

The Train Show takes about 45 minutes to go through and of course then after that you are free to rome around the entire garden. I love it there. There are plenty of things to do with the kids if you want to go. There is a Ginerbread House where they can make cookies and do crafts while you wait for your time slot to see the Train Show. It's a really nice day out if you're looking for something a bit different to do. Happy Holidays Everyone.. Enjoy the pictures I took.

For all of the pictures look HERE

Christmas House in Deer Park

My friend called me the other day and said, "you have to see this house", so me being .... well, me... had to see it. And it was sure well worth it. It was very cool. I can't even imagine how long it took this man to get all of these lights and decorations up in his yard. He must start in October and let's not even mention the electric bill! He uses all the donations toward the Schneider's Children's Hospital. I'm not sure of the exact address but it's in Deer Park right off of Deer Park Avenue not too far from the Southern State. I'm sure you can find it if you look. There are lots of cars around it. If you go, please donate!